Hope you enjoyed the little surprise which turned out to be something you never dreamed of getting! I wish this year will be filled with many travels, enjoyable food/drinks/moments and most importantly have happiness in everything that you do :)
Yours, with love,
Your daughter
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No one in the world can take the place of your mother. Right or wrong, from her viewpoint you are always right. She may scold you for little things, but never for the big ones.
At moments like this, I just wished you could tap into my heart and breathe a sigh of peace. Yet you wrench my heart up into a stone pretzel.
You keep hurting me like a 5yr old boy, flinging a cat in circles because you wanted to hear it shriek so you could laugh with your friends. The shrieks get louder, yet you never seem to understand why the volume increases.
As tears well up in my eye, I just wished you knew how much this hurt.
I wish nothing to do with you anymore. I'm sorry I didn't make you understand.
Please go away. Stop hurting me. You weren't there when I needed you. What makes you think I need you now? You allowed me to endure pain and I have to thank you for the pain. It's just made my heart tougher.
Please. Just. GO AWAY. Let my stone heart be longing for a suitor with Merlin's sword.
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All the world is full of suffering. It is also full of overcoming.
Gotta find a way Yeah, I can't wait another day And nothin' gonna change If we stay around here Gotta do what it takes Cause all in our hands, We all make mistakes, yeah But it's never too late to start again Take another breath And say another prayer Then fly away from here Anywhere Yeah, I don't care We'll just fly away from here Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere Won't let time pass us by We'll just fly If this life Gets any harder now It ain't no nevermind You got me by your side And anytime you want Yeah, we can catch a train and find a better place Yeah, cause we won't let nothin' or no one keep gettin' us down Maybe you and I Could pack our bags and hit the sky Then fly away from here Anywhere Yeah, I don't care We'll just fly away from here Our hopes and dreams are out there somewhere Won't let time pass us by We'll just fly Do you see a bluer sky now You can have a better life now Open your eyes Cause no one here can ever stop us They can try but we won't let them No way Maybe you and I Could pack our bags and say goodbye Then fly away from here Anywhere Honey, I don't care We'll just fly away from here Our hope and dreams are out there somewhere Fly away from here Yeah, anywhere Honey, I don't, I don't, I don't care We'll just fly away
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bringing me out the dark.
Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your ship bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do.
There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark.
The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all.
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,
We could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Making a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,
The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside of your hand,
But you played it with a beating.
Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for.
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown.
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
We could have had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all.
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
It all, it all, it all.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
And you played it to the beat.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
Could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me)
Rolling in the deep.
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep)
You had my heart inside of your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me
But you played it,
You played it,
You played it to the beat.
Trainer has been good to me and I've gotta buck up on the timing of the sessions. Preferably more hours needed to be clocked in. I wonder if I will see results sooner than expected? I will need to be stubborn and let go of my wants. We're gonna work even more closely now than ever. Perhaps I'll do a better recording than the last 3 months!
...why i bruise...
...how i fell...
...where i wanna go, but not...
...how much i think about him...
...why i can understand them so well...
...why i just keep quiet...
...the pain i am in...
...how i cringe and fear life...
...THE pain i am in...
...the PAIN i am in...
...the pain I am in...
Do you know what i am thinking, right now?
Do you really want to know?
As mid year comes clanging on the door, I assume new roles and change will happen. Hence, it may get hectic!
Life is a game. There will be winners and losers.
I included this poster because it's so clearly M'sian style and attitude... or the "tidak apa" attitude. Wait till he needs help, then only call for help!
In all relationships, whether good or bad, find a good friend and maintain the rest of your friendships. Keep your brdges solid .
Deep within each heart
There lies a magic spark
That lights the fire of our imagination
And since the dawn of man
The strenght of just "I can"
Has brought together people of all nations
There’s nothing ordinary
In the living of each day
There’s a special part
Every one of us will play
Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
As the world gives us its best
To stand apart from all the rest
It is the power of the dream that brings us here
Your mind will take you far
The rest is just pure heart
You’ll find your fate is all your own creation
Every boy and girl
As they come into this world
They bring the gift of hope and inspiration
Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here
There’s so much strength in all of us
Every woman child and man
It’s the moment that you think you can’t
You’ll discover that you can
Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here
Feel the flame forever burn
Teaching lessons we must learn
To bring us closer to the power of the dream
The world unites in hope and peace
We pray that it will always be
It is the power of the dream that brings us here
The power of the dream
The faith in things unseen
The courage to embrace your fear
No matter where you are
To reach for your own star
To realize the power of the dream
I woke up this morning to find NO green gunk! YES! I woke up despite only getting 4hours sleep or so... I was perspiring. This was indeed a good sign on the road to recovery!
Day went pretty smoothly. Had a few coughing spells in the middle of the day which didn't last too long.
And now? I am still coughing ... I believe it will clear off in due time. Looking forward to that day! To great days and seriously, less of this love-hate relationship and MORE SLEEP.
Sago with potatoes and spices.
I like this dish very much. Texture is rubbery yet fun to eat! Normally served with cold yoghurt.
Masala Dosa
The Train (Mumbai-Pune)
The aircon was really strong. Drama on the train ensued when a passenger on the Reserved list took a seat of a Confirmed passenger. Just like in the movies...except no fist-throwing or dancers coming out from the seats.
Care for a Shoe-Shine ?
People even shine their "leather sandals"
Breakfast on the floor
One of the many snack/food stalls at the train station.
Was so tempted to eat something but thought twice about it.
Platform 1 at Dadar CST Station
The porch of Karishma Hotel
Yes, it IS a hotel!
The Deluxe, Centralized A/C room
Centralized A/C means a regular aircon in the walkway, blowing into the door-top vent of every room!
Definitely not the Centralized A/C we have in our offices!
As I lay coughing my lungs out in bed the past few days, I felt the whole world collapsing. Each cough flashes a ring of light around my eyeballs. Like a halo. Each cough makes my body curl up so bad, I get cramps in my abdomen & stomach. Each cough, makes me tear and weary. My head hurts. My head, hurts.The throbbing gets worse as the day comes to an end. It is an effort to go to bed. Each night, I thank Him for what I have today especially the people around me.
This is Day 5.
As the nights pass, I think back on the great day I had. Well-spent with friends and most importantly, family. Sometimes I can't help but think, that I'm ....
As my father's birthday creeps in slowly, I anticipate excitement and perhaps some element of fear. Our parents are getting older and requires more care and concern. Not just physical care but also the psychological part of it. They've taken care of us for the whole 30 years that we're alive, and it is and always has been our responsibility to take care of them.
My parents live a healthier life than any of us. They project vigour, strength and energy. I look up to them for inspiration, in hopes to always make them proud of us in anything we do. We cannot let them down. We cannot let ourselves down. Just get the tempo going and don't give up. Appreciate the love and care from the people around us and always give the benefit of the doubt.
Keep striving. Keep walking. Keep.at.it. Life's short. I hope the people around me are loving what they do. Keep the energy in the Universe flowing upwards. Spread the joy, spread the love.
...you found out your best friend is bi-polar/suffers from depression yet he/she is in denial?
...the "leading person" of your belief/religion of where you attend weekly, is having an affair?
...someone found out your deepest & darkest secret and is bound to diminish your work/efforts at the workplace?
...you realized your so-called "best-friend" true colours which he/she takes you for granted?
...you realise that he/she is not the one for you although it's "till death do us part"?
...your dreams about a premonition comes true?
...you just found out about a friend's suicide attempt/death?
...you know you have xxx amount of time left to live....?
In the end of the day, these will fade off. Nothing is more important than what you are doing in your own life. As long as you are happy doing what you love, no one can touch you.
Life's too short to live in regret. It waits for no man... Sometimes it's just best to stop asking why, but instead how can I make it better? Be the change in the world, Gandhi said. Change is not easy, but it is possible.
